Eli Gundry

Feelings

I maintain a diary of my feelings using Daylio which I publish to this site daily. I wrote a bit about it on my blog, if you are interested in how and why.

I felt rad

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 💆‍♂️
  • Baby shower! It was so nice that everyone showed up and was so supportive.
  • I got a letter from Margret and Gordon Maupin that made me cry a lot. It wasn’t even that serious, but I just overwhelmed me that they thought of me.
  • Rachel left for the Berkshires so I just relaxed bachelor style

I felt rad

🥩 🥡 🍜 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Pizza day at work! Got a lot done and had a fun lunch and learn.
  • New program at the gym, bit more baby than I’d like, but it’ll do
  • I planned a simple date night of Mexican food. We ended up seeing the end of Bolivia’s football match from the World Cup playoffs with a bunch of lively Bolivians. They were quite happy they came from behind and won

I felt good

🥩 💼
  • Rachel and I hashed out the fight from the morning. She needs to be more specific about what she’s scared of and what she needs. I need to be more patient and not require so much rationalization.
  • Inshallah we finished this crunchy birthing class! Things we spent more time on than changing a diaper: having the baby sleep in the bed with you (good?), informed consent, circumcision, and breathing. 15 hours of this crap.
  • One of the worst fights of our marriage. We’re both stressed and she has some intense hormones.

I felt good

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 🌞 💼
  • Shipped my work fastball! Very happy with how it turned out!
  • Discussed UI refactor, should be a fun lil project.
  • Dentist 🦷! My teeth are perfect!
  • I’m so excited for birthing class to wrap up. 15 hours is just too much.

I felt rad

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🌿 💆‍♂️
  • Our first formal State of the Union was a big success. I got a retro template down, a shared todo list created, etc. I think we made good progress on the things we needed to talk about and plan for baby.
  • KAdam’s birthday party in Bushwick!

I felt good

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🎉 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Great workout at the gym that I sucked at parts of
  • Came home to discover Rachel had not been paying into her student loans for the past year or so because of this bitch ass administration killing the SAVE plan without an immediate replacement (which should have just been IDR). As a result, the PSLF forgiveness date has been pushed back to 2030. This sucks because it low key pushes back any date we could buy NY property to that date. Rachel cried when I explained this and went into a panic attack. I tried to calm her down and we are going to talk to an accountant about this asap
  • I tried to clean the apartment but I’m just lazy now.
  • Anjie’s game night was fun!

I felt awful

🏚 🥩 🥡
  • What an awful day. I was on deadline for a new feature, cruising right on time for delivery when… I find an existing feature not working as I thought at like 6pm. Just started kicking my chair and groaning cause I was so mad.
  • It didn’t help that I was at my computer for the whole day without breaks and lunch. That has to stop.
  • Logged off late and couldn’t fall asleep.

I felt good

🥩 📚 💼
  • **Management log:** I was a little short with Adi this morning when he asked for help for an explanation on why a test might be failing. I should have been more curious instead proscriptive and paired with him.
  • Went to gym for the first time since our Dublin trip 🏋️‍♂️. Got some tightness after SSBs that sorta knocked me out. I wasn’t get ER on the squat.
  • I think the fastball at work is gonna slide in right on time without bugs 🐛
  • Rushed home to eat dinner with Rachel and take a dusk diabetes walk. We listened to _Are You Mad At Me?_ and it struck a chord with both of us in a different ways. The chapter we listened to was about the fawn response, which Rachel has but I do not (I freeze). My hyper vigilance comes from being fired and a lil homeless, which I’m still dealing with.

I felt meh

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 🌞 💼
  • Last couple days have been a blur. Caught a fastball at work that I’m hammering away at while being a little bored with it.
  • Had couples counseling yesterday. I got a little yelled at because I’m too silly during them. We are going to move our state of the union to earlier on the day on Sundays so we can focus better and generate more to talk about.
  • Had counseling today. I’m going to start journaling more about my challenges with managing and mentoring.

I felt meh

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Rachel got a diagnosis of gestational diabetes that really put a damper on the day. I tried my best to support, but she needs to go through it.
  • Made carrot and bean soup, so tasty, but I had to do a lot of cooking. I wasn’t planning on making broth, but I couldn’t close the freezer after shopping, so needed to use the chicken scraps.

I felt rad

🏚 🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 🌞
  • Had an early morning baby doctor visit. We asked some of the questions from the birthing class and got extremely favorable answers (induce at 41 weeks, evidence based approach). Baby is also healthy.
  • Work had a fire that I was not a part of. Was able to focus on what needed to get done.
  • Went to a Kabalat Shabbat at the local synagogue for the first time. Seems like a nice community, though a little small. Met a nice couple that lives near by that we stayed out late talking to.

I felt good

🥩 🍜 📚 💼
  • Birthing classes have been hell on my schedule. I’m excited to have a normal week sleep wise next week.
  • Work is fun when I’m able to play loose and juggle somethings.
  • I need to set an alarm to leave work by 6:30 so I’m not getting home at 8 for dinner.

I felt good

🥩 📺 📚 ✈️
  • Woke up early in Dublin and went to bad late in NYC. 6+ hour flights are no joke.
  • Got halfway through a bunch of shows. The Lowdown (fun but couldn’t quite stick the landing), Chad Powers (I’m enjoying it, but it’s Eastbound without the jokes) and Say Nothing (bummer of show that is just acted okay).

I felt rad

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • The back half of the Dublin trip was awesome! We did the Guinness Storehouse (very touristy, but fun, we learned how to pour a pint), did a 1916 uprising walking tour (highlight of the trip) followed by the Kilmainham Gaol (that one really got to me, just how carceral Irish society was during the famine). Lots of brews and music and walking in between.
  • Rachel and I were happy to get out for a bit. It’s our last adult vacation before the baby, so that was nice.

I felt rad

🥩 📺 🎶 👫 🍜 📚 ✈️ 🌞 💼
  • Going through the Daylio list, I really did it all today. Today was also ~40 hours, so that helped.
  • My day started in Queens at 6am. It was raining hard as I dragged my full sized suitcase to the train as I went to work. I drank a Celsius and ate an apple fritter on the train to work.
  • Work went okay, was still on bug patrol, but I shipped some good features that we will realize the value of later. I got a giant Italian sandwich for lunch, only half of I ate.
  • Left at 5pm to take the train to JFK. TOOK THE AIRTRAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME, WHAT A RUN DOWN SITUATION. For an 8 dollar train ticket, I’m not asking for much, just not to almost get kicked in the face by an unhoused person making a literal witches laugh.
  • On the train, I started listening to _Fear and Fury_, which is a book about Bernie Goetz. Great read and I can understand where he was coming from in that moment and that moment only.
  • Took a flight to Ireland at 9:15pm, during which I experienced another 6am without really sleeping (was watching _The Lowdown_, which is excellent). Landed at 9am, got to hotel by 10:30am, took a quick cat nap until 2pm.
  • Wandered around Dublin! We went to several green spaces, drank warm tea together, bought some baby clothes and were very wholesome on our Babymoon until dinner.
  • At dinner, things got a little sloppy. Had a filet medium rare with an “Irish Lager” (Murphy’s not Guinness). The steak was so good and beer just washed it down perfectly. After that, we went to a bar to listen to live Irish music and watch Rugby. I had a Smithwick red ale and two Jameson’s (from a wall tap no less). After that, we saw more live music (Country Roads in Ireland went stupid hard) and I had a Kilkenny and another Jameson along with it. Good and sauced at this point.
  • Went back to the hotel and made passionate love and finally to bed at midnight the next day.

I felt good

🥩 🥡 👯‍♂️ 📚 💼
  • Really got into flow state at work. So many agents.
  • Birthing class was fun! Birth is gonna be fun for us

I felt meh

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Work went okay. Launched the thing I’ve been focused on for too long. Just doing cleanup until the next stuff comes.
  • Watched a birthing video in advance of our birthing class tomorrow. It made it look easy and we were giggling during it.

I felt meh

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🥡 🍜 🍿 📚 💆‍♂️
  • Slept 10.5 hours last night, the toll of the previous week came due. Bed rotted and watched American Gangster.
  • Rachel and I cooked a dinner together without fighting. It helped that I explained what I was thinking before we started and showed how I wanted certain things.

I felt good

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🍜 🌿 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️
  • Finished Joan Didion’s _The Year of Magical Thinking_. Ending hit hard and got me thinking about how it could apply to my life.
  • Gym really kicked my ass and had to tap out. SSB step ups were killer.
  • Spent the day preparing French Onion beans in advance of Anne stopping by for dinner. Both turned out fine.

I felt good

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 💼
  • It was nice to be relatively unburdened at work and able to focus on wrapping some stuff up instead of being on the clock. I wasn’t the blocker today!
  • Lawn Club was fun. I liked the trash can beer pong competition with Gabo and nice to have a heart to heart with Sean.
  • The thing I need to keep in mind is that tomorrow is a new day and I cannot carry forward negativity that I’ve been feeling at work because of mismanaged projects. The help is here and I have to believe that things are gonna get good.
  • Got home and just had fun talking to Rachel about our days and what we are thinking about. I really needed that.

I felt bad

🥩 💼
  • It just sucked to work late again, especially when I thought I was going to be able to get home for dinner.

I felt meh

🏚 🍜 🌿 📚 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Woke up early and shoveled the snow
  • On deadline until Wednesday, gotta get these filters shipped shipped shipped
  • Very envious that Rachel got the day off

I felt rad

🥩 📺 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Went to Long Island to visit Alex, Kat and their baby. They gave us a bassinet! I’m so happy for them and they were such great hosts!
  • Beat the blizzard back. Just chilled.
  • Made bean tostadas with the beans made yesterday. So much great flavor.

I felt rad

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🍿 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Weather was so fun! We walked through Times Square (Rachel hated it) after seeing a movie. As someone tweeted, “weekend before shutdown vibes in 2020” as there is a blizzard tomorrow.
  • Saw _Nirvana The Band The Show The Movie_ and really liked it. We hadn’t seen any of the web series/television show, but the characters were so lovable and funny and so dumb. For a movie that cost $2 million, really creative shooting to make it work.
  • Made pinto beans using some leftover bacon fat. Oh my god, it was so good. Gonna roll those into two meals as a part of the blizzard.

I felt bad

🏚 📺 🍿 🌿 📚
  • Work was rough. I had a hard problem to solve that I tried to craft a prompt off of to one shot but failed. I’m going to take the planning document on Monday and do discrete shippable tasks that will be easier to review.
  • Logged off completely wiped. Didn’t even have lunch. Got a little stoned and watched _You Got Mail_. New York is the fucking best man. Rachel was weeping at the end.

I felt good

🥩 👫 🍜 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Was able to do the gym today! Foot still hurt a bit and it did affect my deadlifts, but I made the best of it.
  • The endorphins from the gym made work very bearable. It’s nice when things are moving forward.
  • Rachel insisted on a local date night at the Queens Room. Pretty good!

I felt good

🏚 🥩 👯‍♂️ 🕹 📚
  • Work was successful and I’m having some fun!
  • Played games with Adam. I’m so happy for him!

I felt good

🍜 🌿 📚 💼
  • My foot still hurt, so skipped the gym again
  • Work was quiet and I was able to focus on filtering, which was nice. Want to get that wrapped up ASAP

I felt good

🥩 🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 📚
  • Rachel and I worked through the Valentine’s Day SNAFU. I said my piece, she cried a little, but I don’t think I was out of line in what I said and she agreed.
  • Stav visited! So nice to see them!
  • My left heel bothered me all day, yet I kept pushing myself on it.
  • Spent the weekend finishing some books! A Man of Many Fathers (loved it, very funny and was interesting what was similar from my life when I was a poor young man), American Kings (Wickersham can write about football, man) and Empire of AI (I need to limit my AI information consumption otherwise it makes me little crazy)

I felt meh

🥩 🧹 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚
  • Got the urge to clean so I went to town on the apartment.
  • Rachel picked up the stroller and we assembled it at the storage unit. It’s starting to feel real.

I felt good

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🍿 🎉 📚 🏃‍♂️
  • We really did it all!
  • Started the day off with a killer workout (stretching + class). Rachel showed up for the class so that was nice.
  • After that, we vibed and then went grocery shopping for the weekend. Going to try to eat more fruit this weekend as the default snack.
  • We went to a Mardi Gras party! It was nice to meet some other Jewish people there and learn that the conservative synagogue in our neighborhood isn’t homophobic and that we should probably go.
  • I was a little overwhelmed in the party and sorta hid. I’m not doing good with loud rooms lately.
  • Got back and tried to have a successful Valentine’s Day dinner. Dinner turned out great, but Rachel’s desert sorta killed the mood.
  • Watched _Roman Holiday_, which was an early Audrey Hepburn flick with Gregory Peck. It was very cute and had a thinker of an ending.

I felt good

🏚 🥡 🍜 🍿 🌿 📚
  • Stressful day but we’re only looking up for the long weekend and work will be better next week
  • Watched _Sleepless in Seattle_. I wish we could live in the PNW, but alas, I’m a city boy now. Couldn’t make that movie today in that no streamer would all you to have that big of stars not be on the screen together with dialogue until the last scene.
  • I’m grateful that Rachel stay up a little late so we could cuddle and talk. I felt the most love I’ve felt in a bit just now.

I felt good

👯‍♂️ 🌿 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Did a lot at work, but shipped just a little. Had fun profiling code to debug an issue.
  • Woke up early for the gym, still had time to pick up a bagel and make it to work before 9am.
  • Had a Celsius at like 5pm and came home wired. Lots of joking around.

I felt bad

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚
  • Work was hell in that not much moved and I juggled too much. Oh well, tomorrow will be better.
  • Had personal AND couples therapy AND also got a little too personal with a coworker about my anxieties of the future.
  • The homework for couples therapy is that Rachel and I need to cook some meals together and write about it independently in a Rashomon style assignment.

I felt meh

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Gotta really nice workout this morning that carried good vibes through the day.
  • Only downside is that I worked in the office until 8pm. Didn’t _need_ to, but did to make up time for tomorrow.

I felt rad

🥩 📺 👫 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Went on a long weekend trip to Miami for a wedding. It felt great to have sun touch parts of my body that hasn’t experienced it in so long. Even got a lil sunburn.
  • It was so nice to see Rachel’s friends. They are so solid and nice.
  • Flew back to 10 degree weather 😭❄️
  • Super Bowl was fun because I love defensive football. Just made a lil potato soup for dinner.

I felt meh

🥩 🍜 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Had to fast all day for an ultrasound. Hope my liver is okay lol
  • I’m just floating along doing what I can. I don’t really feel like I have a good aim at work. But I’ll be supportive.

I felt meh

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Back to the grindstone. Almost done with this project and can dream again.
  • I’m just emotionally blank and tired. Gotta make it to midweek and get to Miami

I felt good

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Took a long walk to run some errands around the neighborhood. Got a tie + pocket square + socks and bought a trash can for recycling.
  • Made a caramelized fennel past for dinner. Used sausage to make the spicy oil and then deglazed with Vermouth. Very unhealthy, but very tasty.
  • Rachel and I were a little distant and in our own worlds reading. We need to make more time for us.

I felt rad

📺 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌿 📚 💆‍♂️ 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Woke up early to hit the gym. 3x this week! Got a good one in today.
  • We were supposed to go to Long Island to see Alex + Katherine, but that fell through because she was sick. We will go next month.
  • Picked up my suit for the wedding and got a haircut.
  • Roasted 🦐 shrimp and 🥦 broccoli rabe for dinner. So good!
  • Rachel was gassy all day on account of her being pregnant 🤰
  • I was grateful to just watch YouTube videos with Rachel today about frogs

I felt good

🏚 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🍿 🌿 📚 🏃‍♂️
  • Work went really well. Finally got the feedback I needed to move forward.
  • Made pesto beans for dinner. I also skipped lunch, which really has been putting me in a spot calorie wise I don’t like.
  • Watch Bugonia! Yorgos, you did it again, you beautiful Greek genius of a man!

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌞
  • Work was less stressful and had bit of good news. They are releving me to a better job title! If I can just get this project off my plate, I’ll be happy.
  • I’m grateful that Rachel and I cackled in bed at this DBT coping strategies worksheet and all its awful ideas.

I felt bad

🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • All around frustrating day! Train was late! Had to work late! Changes!
  • Got some direction at work about process changes. Cautiously optimistic about them, gonna be asking a lot and can’t hide, but so it goes.
  • Missed eating dinner with Rachel cause of work. Should have done a better job communicating my schedule as well.

I felt meh

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 🌞 💼
  • I don’t know why I even went into the office today. No one was there and it was gross out.
  • I’m getting 12 weeks of paid paternity! I thought I would only get 5-6, so this is a big deal.
  • Heard a bit about the changes we are making at work. We will see what’s up about it more tomorrow.

I felt good

📺 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌿 📚 💆‍♂️ 👨‍💻
  • ❄️ Snow day!
  • 🌯 Meal prepped burritos with leftover beans. We have food for the week!
  • Screenshared my laptop with Rachel to look over the baby registry. Made a lot of progress. Had a great laugh about baby walkers being dangerous.

I felt good

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🕹 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🛒 🏃‍♂️
  • Storm prep day! Made a big batch of chicken tortillas soup and will prep burritos instead of going outside.
  • I’m powering through The Gods of New York. The 80s were a crazy time.
  • Finished _A Space for the Unbound_. What a beautiful game with a touching story. Canny believe how up my alley it was.

I felt meh

🏚 🌿 📚
  • I just feel a little bit of terror when I think about work. It’s like bailing water out of a sinking boat. It doesn’t need to be, but I’m making it that way.
  • Part of it is that I have a light flu going on. Why am I waking up so sore and queasy.

I felt bad

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🍜 📚 💼
  • Work was hell. I’m sick and I’m powering through to meet a deadline. I’m not seeing the point of the deadline, but I’m rolling with it.
  • Couples therapy was helpful. I kinda steered it a bit more than in the past. I need to investigate more coping strategies, gentle startups, and the relationship house.
  • Worked late and spent even more time cooking a dal for dinner. It wasn’t too spicy, but had flavor and was very good for me.

I felt meh

🥩 📚 💼
  • Work was a whole thing. Excited to wrap up this project.
  • I literally have nothing else on my mind. It’s empty.

I felt good

🥩 📺 🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🍜 💆‍♂️
  • Gender reveal! We’re having a girl. I did get a little pissy at Rachel’s friend who was filming unnecessarily. But it all worked out at the end.
  • Rachel: “Sometimes, I don’t know how to comfort you”
  • Stayed up late watching the National Championship. Indiana!!!

I felt good

🥩 📺 💆‍♂️
  • My body demanded a lazy day. Slept in, started Mad Men, and watched a lot of football. I was just too tired.

I felt rad

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚 🌞
  • Went to Flushing to do some baby shopping. We ended up buying a stroller after some delicious soup.
  • I’m grateful for that trip and walking in the snow with Rachel
  • Made chicken breast au poivre for a very late dinner. It was pretty good!

I felt meh

🥩 🌞 💼
  • Went into work in the office today to keep trying to get this dumb project over the line. Still feel no closer, but at least it appreciated.
  • Watched the Sara Squirm standup special, I loved it and how gross it was. REEEEELAAAAXXXX

I felt bad

🥩 📚 💼
  • Worked extremely late. Realized I didn’t QA some work closely enough AND just more bugs popped up that put things in peril for tomorrow. AND I HAVE TO GO IN TO THE OFFICE FML!!!
  • Got a quote back from a nursery of $30k a year 😵‍💫
  • I got home and asked about said quote and made Rachel cry as she has no idea of our finances.

I felt meh

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 📚
  • Woke up in a rush, but couldn’t eat until my blood was drawn.
  • Worked through lunch in a minor panic. Gotta ship this API, but I also think I hit a flow state with 3 Claude Code sessions so that was fun.
  • Had a therapy session where I complained about my wife for an hour. Walked away not feeling great about it, but talked to Rachel later about it and I think we got somewhere. She’s gonna explain some of the baby shopping ideas for me and I’m gonna work to make the space work. Also, phone free friday nights.

I felt good

🥩 📚 🌞 💼
  • We met our new OBGYN and saw new pictures of our baby! We like her and are happy with our switch to Cornell.
  • Heat is getting turned up at work. Gotta keep the pressure up. Worked very late.

I felt good

🥩 📺 🧹 🧑‍🍳 📚 🛒
  • Cleaned and cooked all day. Did so much domestic labor.
  • Minor flare up around rugelach. Rachel went to a store that sold nothing but it, bring me back none of it because she thought I would think it’s “too shortbready” or whatever that means. I got a little short because I did all the domestic labor today while Rachel just got to hang out with a friend and I couldn’t even get a single rugelach.

I felt rad

🥩 🧹 👯‍♂️ 📚 🏃‍♂️ 🌞
  • Extremely busy day! Rented a UHaul to move some stuff in our apartment to our storage unit. Rachel and I didn’t fight once and I had a blast driving around the neighborhood. We didn’t fight once and just got along super well.
  • The gym was great this morning. We talked a bunch about Hegseth’s trash ass kettlebell swings. I got better form than him!

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚
  • Personal and couples therapy went well.
  • Personal therapy: I need to stop seeing everyone at work as literal competition. I also need to really focus on 1-3 things that I’m grateful for.
  • Couples therapy: I need to turn down doing bits about 25%, especially when Rachel is sad. Let her be in it for a bit before rescuing her.
  • Coding with LLMs sucked all my energy yesterday. I have working code, passes test locally, fails in the CI, and I have to loop on how to fix it in a distracting way. Oh and it was two sessions doing this.
  • **Gratitude**: Rachel for sharing as much as she did during couples therapy. We are still in love, we just need to find time for that to simmer together.

I felt good

🥩 💼
  • Meeting the new VP went pretty okay. Super nice and listened well. We will see how it goes.
  • The thing about running multiple Claude sessions is that it’s a lot of context switching. Very exhausting.
  • Team dim sum dinner, too much fried food.

I felt good

🕹 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • First day back at the office, snacked way too much. Gotta tamp that down.
  • Got home pooped, but stayed up too late playing Final Fantasy Tactics

I felt good

🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌿 📚 🌞
  • Slept in but didn’t have a lazy day. Went to our empty storage unit to scope it out and then took the ACs out of our window.
  • Made a very spicy shrimp marsala curry for dinner. I should have tasted a bit more than I did, but it was still tasty.

I felt good

🥩 📚 👨‍💻 🏃‍♂️
  • Went to the gym early and really just powered through my workout.
  • Got back home with my mind buzzing about the game I’ve been kicking around in my head for a year now. Sat down and got Claude Code working with the Godot MCP and I’m just vibing now. Core game loop is 20% there and rolling.
  • Ended the day watching One Battle After Another with Rachel. CINEMA! PTA did it again. Man he’s got a TYPE!

I felt meh

🏚 🥩 📚 🏃‍♂️
  • Welcome back! Lots going on in general, but today was just a boring slog
  • Rachel had the day off and I’m very jealous. She watched Heated Rivalry without me, I need a divorce.
  • Finished Expecting Better while at the gym. Need to read the sequel to see how Emily Oster’s husband can be the worst dad

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚
  • Therapy went really well. We are going to do some couples therapy just to get us ready for the next phase of our life.
  • How am I 35 and still fighting GitHub Actions?
  • Roasted a whole chicken over cabbage, always a winner of a meal.

I felt good

🏚 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌿 📚
  • Work got a lot better after I vented for a bit with my therapist + caught up with Edipo. I gotta remember to give people grace and remember what success can look like.
  • Was able to get in the zone for a bit work wise, which was nice.
  • Made pasta e cici with a bunch of veggies and homemade chickpea that was very tasty.

I felt rad

🥩 👨‍💻 🌞 💼
  • My talk went so well, I killed! I started the talk with everyone sharing their salaries and ended sticking my points somewhat.
  • It was awesome to see people I haven’t seen in 3-5 years! I need to convert them to friends
  • Rachel is pregnant for realz now. I’m gonna be a daddy! Baby Methuselah!
  • Work went well, we moved desks, things got done, gotta stay supportive of everyone.

I felt good

🧑‍🍳 🌿 👨‍💻 🌞
  • Spent all day finishing my talk. I have the slides where I want, just need to figure out a snappy conclusion. Like literally 2-3 lines. It’ll come to me tomorrow
  • Rachel and I had a little dust up because I was a little too roasty. I need to take a beat and remember that I love her and she’s soft before saying any old thing.

I felt meh

🌿 💼
  • Ugh Louie is leaving. Gonna be interesting to see how things shape up here. Not thinking about leaving as I think we can turn this around.

I felt awful

📚 🌞 💼
  • Work went pretty okay, the table tennis needs to stop tho
  • Absolutely lost it when I found out half the reason I’m going to Chicago won’t be there 🤬 It absolutely broke me and I cried a bunch

I felt meh

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚
  • You know, for being very sick, I did a lot today. Got a lot of work done, had a good therapy session, cooked dinner AND watered the plants! Only downside was feeling woozy during most of it.

I felt rad

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Woke up a lil hungover / tried (didn’t get home until 1am, only had two drinks tho)
  • Walked around after my haircut and thought about the lessons of this summer. Discussed them with Rachel (we’re taking some Ls, need to communicate better)
  • Cooked some giant Lima beans for a bean salad tomorrow. So big, so creamy!

I felt rad

🥩 📺 🧑‍🍳 🍜 💆‍♂️ 🛒 🏃‍♂️
  • Woke up early for a great gym session before watching college football all day. We are so back!
  • Made chicken burgers that were topped with my homemade shishito/jalapeño/grape hot sauce. So good!

I felt good

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🕹 🌿 📚 🏃‍♂️ 💼
  • Work went pretty smoothly, so close to moving on to the next thing!
  • Played games with Adam. I sorta understand Death Stranding now
  • Made some a mix between a dal and a scampi. It was just okay.

I felt meh

🥩 📚 🌞 💼
  • Summited the mountain of work that had me down yesterday today. “It’s so over” always leads to “We’re so back”
  • Worked later than I should have tho. Gotta balance leaving in time as doing a little more later

I felt good

🥩 👯‍♂️ 💼
  • Brooklyn Web Workers #1: Talked to people I haven’t seen in 5 years and just felt the vibes of the world before the pandemic. I’m speaking at the next one and I’m gonna crush
  • Real low point at work where I had a massive unrevertable bug that I was up against the gun of leaving on. Figured it out but I really didn’t handle it well. I need to do breathing before it gets bad
  • Fascism is pretty bad out there, y’all.

I felt meh

🏚 🧑‍🍳 🍜
  • Therapy was good. We need to make a chores list/handbook so Rachel and I are on the same page.
  • Woke up a lil late after a night with friends.
  • Was able to sorta hit flow state. I need that more.
  • Made a salad and a watermelon + mint sorbet. Nice to not have to cook anything but use the CSA.

I felt rad

🥩 🎶 🍜 🌞 💼
  • I got to see Snowing tonight, a top 3 fave emo band for me! It lived up to the billing, in my mind (they were an opener).
  • Work has been hella fun. I landed at a good spot that I’ll post on Monday.
  • Gotta wake up at 5am tomorrow to get upstate for Passover 😭

I felt rad

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Over the past two weeks, I have just unwound and been a house husband, cooking and going on walks and just chilling.
  • One day, I went to the MoMA and then a creative coding meetup where I vibecoded an approximation of an artist’s process that I saw.
  • Another day, I went to a Mets bar for the season opener and then went to another bar for a Hell Gate meetup.
  • Saturday, Rachel and I went to a walking and talk meetup and maybe made a new friend or two!
  • And today, I made a delicious bean and shrimp soup that took a while but turned out fantastic. I’ll need to keep in mind that black beans take a bit longer to cook.

I felt rad

🧑‍🍳 👯‍♂️ 🕹 🍜 🌿 📚 💆‍♂️ 👨‍💻 🌞
  • Accepted a job offer!
  • Early morning walk with Stav was fun!
  • Caught up with Alex, seems like he’s enjoying being a dad!

I felt rad

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 🏛 📚 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • Another wonderful day with Jonathan in the city! We went to the Museum of the Moving Image, shot some pool, and had a big dim sum dinner with all our friends.
  • Somehow, we caught the last train from Manhattan to Astoria for the day 🙌

I felt rad

🎭 👯‍♂️ 🍜 🌿 💆‍♂️ 🌞
  • That job I was sad about missing out on Saturday? I got an offer from it!
  • Jonathan has been visiting and we have done so much fun stuff. Saw Hadestown tonight!

I felt bad

🥩 🍜 💆‍♂️ 👨‍💻
  • I was all depressed because of probably missing out on some decent enough jobs I interviewed for. It’s the first failed final rounds that break your heart. I just bed rotted and moped around.
  • Stayed up late working on my lil AI meal planning app. We’re getting closer, spent a bit of time fighting the library, but I’m getting close now.

I felt good

🏚 🍜 🌿 📚 👨‍💻
  • Had some intro interviews that I think went okay. I’m hoping that they go somewhere, but who knows.
  • The stock market and the general world is much more turbulent than it needs to be.
  • Rachel made a delicious dinner of steamed sweet potato and tuna steak.

I felt good

🥩 🍜 👨‍💻 🏃‍♂️
  • Haven’t journaled for a sec. The big news is that I left my job last week to find something else. I liked working with the team, but we were going through a pivot and I desperately need to be back in person, so this timing really works best for everyone.
  • The job search is going just okay. I thought I would take it easy, but I checked a button in LinkedIn and ALL the recruiters reached out at once. I already have a final round somewhere, but I’m stying grounded and I sorta expect it to take bit to get a final offer.
  • I’m using this time to do some serious studying and upskilling. Reading a lot more about LLMs. Going to meetups again.

I felt meh

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳
  • Very dramatic day at work. Probably gonna get laid off on Monday. Actually kinda happy about it. Market is slightly improving and I have runway.
  • Made buldak chicken with leftover rotisserie chicken. Big hit, happy that I have found a use for rotisserie chicken this week.

I felt good

🥩 👯‍♂️ 🍜 🌞 💼
  • Went and worked solo in a WeWork. Nothing more lonely than seeing other teams doing things
  • Went to a really fun React meetup. I need to get out more!

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🎶 👯‍♂️ 📚 🏃‍♂️
  • Went to a concert with Adam, nice to see him and I very much still miss Brooklyn.
  • Woke up feeling free. I’m 40% certain I’m going to make a big move on Friday and the finality of it is relaxing and exciting.
  • Finished Three Body Problem. I don’t usually read sci-fi, but this was excellent and just the right amount of hard science.

I felt meh

🏚 🍿 🌿 📚
  • Valentine’s Day! Made tomato soup and watched The Proposal.
  • Work went okay, was able to focus a bit.

I felt bad

🏚 🌿 📚
  • It’s been a rough 24 hours. I got very frustrated at work. Just unacceptable level of anger on my part. I need to make a change.
  • I have so many mental blocks that it hurts. I need to tear them down so I can deal with reality in a levelheaded way. I cannot get in a time machine and go back to what was, I need to be present and deal with what is. I need to be excited about what is.
  • I did make a nice farro risotto, so that was nice.

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🍜 📚
  • Went to a cooking class dinner about fermentation. Very delicious, we loved the beets and black rice gochujang risotto. Left with some ideas.
  • Stopped by Little Island before dinner. Wry beautiful with the layer and untouched snow at dusk.
  • Work went better, I’m chilling out a bit. But it could all still go a little wacky tomorrow.

I felt meh

🏚 🧑‍🍳 🍜 🌿 📚 👨‍💻
  • Today was infinitely better than yesterday. For one, I made chilaquiles for dinner. But also, I didn’t have any bouts of crippling anxiety, just generalized anxiety.
  • Wrapped up a lil site update and made a move or two to make my AI bot better.
  • I need to leave the apartment tomorrow, for sure!

I felt awful

🏚 🌿 📚 👨‍💻
  • Just an all around awful day. I was excited to work, but that notion was dampened about 20 minutes into my first call.
  • First call with my new therapist, I think we will work out just fine.
  • Rachel was in Albany, so the apartment was quiet.

I felt awful

🏚 🌿 📚 👨‍💻
  • Just an all around awful day. I was excited to work, but that notion was dampened about 20 minutes into my first call.
  • First call with my new therapist, I think we will work out just fine.
  • Rachel was in Albany, so the apartment was quiet.

I felt meh

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🕹 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🛒
  • This weekend has been tending to my sick wife and it seems that I have caught whatever she had. Hopefully it’s not too bad!
  • In between existential dread about *gestures around*, I made a pesto that turned out perfect.
  • Stayed up very late on Friday playing around with AI stuff. I’m getting the hang of it, I think.

I felt meh

🥩 🧑‍🍳 🕹 🍜 📚 💆‍♂️ 🛒
  • This weekend has been tending to my sick wife and it seems that I have caught whatever she had. Hopefully it’s not too bad!
  • In between existential dread about *gestures around*, I made a pesto that turned out perfect.
  • Stayed up very late on Friday playing around with AI stuff. I’m getting the hang of it, I think.

I felt good

🏚 🥩 🧑‍🍳 📚
  • Was able to hit flow state on some code today and that felt nice.
  • Rachel has been very sick, so trying to support that
  • Made orzo carbonara for dinner, a big easy hit!